It's Sat. morning, and I should be enjoying some shut eye since I don't have to get up early and head to work (weekdays I get up at 5 and out the door a little before 6), but instead I am bright eyed with lots on my mind. I want to share everything on my mind hopefully at some point, but not today. My prayer today: Lord, break my heart for what breaks your heart. I want to have a heart of Christ, which for me today means a broken heart for the things that breaks His heart. I want to be used and be willing to be used in whatever ways the Lord would choose to use our family. I want to be a part of Kingdom work while we are here on this side of the veil. Trust me, I can't wait till He returns or calls us home, but He has left us here for now to serve Him and to further His kingdom. I wish I knew what it was going to look like, but I have heard Michael say before (which he probably heard from somewhere too) "If the Lord showed us the whole picture, it would scare us to death". So instead, we are shown a step at a time. It feels like we are driving through the fog at times only seeing 10 feet in front of us, but soon enough the Lord will reveal how He plans to use our family for His purposes. And that is my prayer, that it be for HIS purposes and not our own. I have learned the last 2 years that WE are NOT in control of our lives here on earth. Even though I really try and want to have the control, I can't and won't. Have I talked about this before? I feel like it is constantly in front of me and on my heart. I know God's ways are so much better than ours and He knows what He is doing, but sometimes in the midst of things it is hard to see how this is better or for our good.
I hope to share more as time goes on with what is on my heart, but for this morning, this is all you get. A vague post that might not make sense, but I had to get it out. So, for those that actually take time reading this mess of a blog, pray for us. And, my prayer for all of us who are a part of the Kingdom, break our hearts, Lord! Give us a heart of Christ, not a heart for things of this world.